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The Dark Side of Malays

2011-11-26T21:04:00.002+08:00

A little bit about Malays.

What do you think? In my believe, such an attitude exists. Malays are easily swayed by the outside culture. They are too vulnerable that they try so hard to become an Australian. Australian way of life.

A better world?

2011-11-02T22:02:00.011+08:00

Earlier this week, UNESCO has finally recognised Palestine as a country with a unanimous vote from the members. With that regard, Palestine is now a state member of UN organisation. The inquiry has been made several months ago for Palestine to be included as a state member of the UN.

AMong of the members, 107 voted for, while 14 voted against and several of them abstained. Expectedly, the US and Israel were among the 14 for an obvious reason, and several others like, Australia, Canada and Germany. The US was the one who strongly going against this idea even from the start of the inquiry. Obama administration has been so reluctant to accept Palestine in the UN. Even until today, it was reported that the US government will be cutting it funds to the UNESCO for having the voting ceremony, in which in return favoured Palestine. It was said that as much as $60 million will be cut because of the admission. For those who don't know, the US has a law, prohibiting the country to channel funds to any UN body that grants membership to Palestine. And you now what, the law was made as early as in the 1990s.

So now, my big question is, is this world going to be a better world? I am pretty upset with the US for having such a shame stand in this matter. For an obvious reason, you claimed to be the one to unite the world, bring peace and harmony to the world but now, you even dare to cut funds for UNESCO, who uses funds for literacy, human rights and cultural preservation, education and many others. In a simple word, the US is now depriving the world because when they are so dependant on their funds, they refuse to channel it because of the admission of Palestine.

I must say that the US government is a total puppeteer. They use people for their own good. They use UN and its other bodies for their own good. They have cause against Palestine and they use UN for not voting in favour of Palestine. I mean, come on. Doesn't matter what religion you are from, humanity exists. Can't you see how bad the condition in Palestine right now which was caused by you and your allies? Can you for a second stop doing evil and start thinking about the greater good? Can you put aside all the hatred and stupid sentiment against Islamic countries and start to work on making a better world? Come on America. You are better than this. We are better than this.

Are you afraid that Palestine will try to convince the other members to go against you? To stop doing any act of war against Islamic country? or to change your war policy? Or to your 'even worse', influence the whole UN to start a move to help those invaded countries and help to develop those nations? Seriously. Are you afraid of those things? Why would you? If you know that invading a country is wrong, bombing a residential is wrong, killing innocent people is wrong, why would you do that? Even the 9/11 incident has no proof that it was an act by Muslim. In fact, Obama has a resemblance of Osama bin Ladin especially the face structure. Even the names are almost the same. What are you trying to do actually? I am not pointing fingers saying that you guys are making up stories or what. My whole point is, why do we need war? WHy do we need to create a nuclear weapon if we know it is highly destructive to human race? Why must we create a situation that Muslims are bad? Seriously! What are you trying to do actually? You want to conquer the whole world?

I used to look up to the US once in my life. The US was in fact used to inspire me to be successful in life. But after seeing all these episodes by episodes of drama and act, I don't feel anything about the US. Even in the recent debt crisis I was like, serve your right! and you know what, I think it is a good thing Palestine is admitted into the UN. The US won't be funding the UN bodies. This is good given the recent economic crisis in the US, at least they can use that $60 million to compensate the workers and start to fund the healthcare service in the US. It is not like we can make this world better only by using their money. Even their money is cheap. Simply printing money won't make you rich but rather an idiot. Use something that has value man, like gold or silver like what Islamic countries do.

Ok, this has been a bit diverted. My whole point is, Palestine being admitted into the UN is a big deal to everyone. Big deal to us the Muslims because a nation who is being invaded by a UN member now has a say to at least influence the decision making process in the UN. UN won't make a decision for other member to keep bombing its other members. It is like a parent allowing the first child to keep punching his second child which is nonsense. It is on the other side a big deal to the US and its allies because now they will get affected by such decision of the UN. Simply said, this is a never ending issue. The US will stay with its cause against Palestine, Iran, Libya, Egypt and many others. As long as the same thing exists, we will never get a peaceful world. This world will never get better. The US will keep hating those who don't share the same interest with them.

It may be a bit radical to say this, but, as long as we have those people, this world will never be better.

*for further reading, refer to http://www.smh.com.au/world/us-cuts-un-funds-on-palestine-vote-20111101-1mtty.html

Pertandingan Akhir Piala Malaysia 2011

2011-10-26T15:40:00.003+08:00

Katanya sukan nadi negara. Majulah sukan unutk negara. Maka, dengan semangat kesukanan jugalah, perlawanan akhir Piala Malaysia 2011 akan menemukan Negeri Sembilan dan Terengganu. Jujurnya, saya bangga juga dengan skuad Hobin Jang Hobin ni. Tak sangka-sangka 2 tahun berturut dah masuk final (setakat yang saya tengok lah).

Kemudian, timbul pula isu, kenapa dibuat di Stadium Shah Alam? Pada mulanya, Negeri Sembilan-Terengganu ke, atau Negeri Sembilan-Selangor? Rupanya, memang FAM dah letakkan Stadium Shah Alam sebagai tempat pertandingan. Secara jujurnya, saya hairan mengapa stadium itu yang dijadikan pilihan? Sebaiknya buatlah di stadium peserta akhir. Terengganu atau Paroi. Kalau takut Terengganu punya runtuh, buatlah kat Paroi. Dengarnya kualiti padang di Paroi jauh lebih baik daripada yang di Shah Alam. Dan kalau lah tak nak sangat buat kat Paroi, buat lah kat Bukit Jalil. Dari segi politiknya, agak memusykilkan sebab selangor negeri pembangkang. Saya bukanlah nak buat spekulasi politik di sini. Cuma hairan.

Tidak cukup dengan itu, harga tiket perlawanan pula menjadi isu. Pada mulanya saya tidak kisah sangat sebab RM50 tu kecil je rasanya. Tapi, bila dapat tahu yang harganya itu 66% lagi mahal daripada yang lepas-lepas, hati mana yang tidak tahan. PErsoalan yang paling pertama saya ingin bertanyakan, apakah motinya menaikkan harga tiket? Tempat duduknya kusyen mahal ke? Tiang gol emas ke? Apa rasionalnya? Kalau ikutkan hati, RM30 tu pun mahal. Saya ni mungkinlah bukan peminat bla sepak. Sebab tu kalau ikutkan hati, bagi je lah tengok free. Tapi ye lah, nan ti tempat dudk pulak tak cukup. Jadi kena kan lah harga. Tapi RM50?? Seriously?

Kemudian di panas-panaskan lagi isu ini dengan pemberian subsidi tiket. Ya Allah. Biar betul ni. Perlawanan Akhir diberikan subsidi. Bunyi pun dah pelik. Persoalan saya, mengapa perlu di subsidi kan? Turun kan je lah harga tu. Apa yang susah sangat?

Teori saya begini.

RM30 x 7000 orang yang pergi = RM 210 000 pulangan

RM50 x 3000 orang yang pergi sebab semua boikot dan x mampu nak belanja lebih dari itu akan menjadikan jumlah kutipan tiket sebanyak = RM150 000

Secara logik akalnya, FAM memang tidak berasas kalau naikkan tiket, akan memberi pulangan yang besar. MEreka tidak tahu dalam ketaksuban peminat bola sepak, mereka masih waras dalam berbelanja. RM50 untuk perlawanan sedemikian amatlah tidak berbaloi.

Mereka mungkin akan berkata, RM50 untuk Chelsea lawan Arsenal mungkin berbaloi. Dan puak-puak yang lain akan kata, "kita ni tidak semangat kenegaraan, tidak sanggup bayar lebih untuk melihat perlawanan rakyat Malaysia, tapi sanggup kalau lihat perlawanan asing"

Hadirin sekalian, cakap lah apa yang anda nak cakap. Kami ni tidak patriotik ke, tidak menyokong bola sepak tempata ke, apa sahajalah. Kami tidak kisah. Dan anda perlu faham sebenarnya anda yang tdak patriotik sebab sanggup menggunakan bola sepak sebagai medan mengaut duit rakyat. Subsidi itu untuk siapa? katakan RM20 x Full House (30 000 orang) maka subsidi adalah sebanyak RM 600 000! Anda menjadikan sukan sebagai medan pertarungan politik. My only word is, SHAME ON YOU people. It is time for you to change the admin! People are sick of this political issue in our sports arena. Stop it!

Akhir kata, kalau beginilah jadinya dengan nasib sukan negara kita, jangan kan "Majulah sukan untuk negara", memang dah tak akan ada orang dah nak tengok sukan yang macam ni.

Citra Malaysia 2011

2011-10-25T13:11:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone. I hope there are still people reading my blog. Haha. So, as the title sounds, Citra Malaysia 2011. It was the Malaysia's biggest cultural event ever made in Brisbane, Queensland. This year's would be a landmark event for the many coming years. I was given an opportunity to perform in the event. I was singing 4 songs of the 60's or people in Malaysia called it, pop yeh yeh..! I feel honoured to perform in such a big event. In fact, that would be my first time performing in front of the crowd, besides the one during SDAR Open Day in 2008 (that was silly). Well, I must say that the event was a success. Not to forget my performance was so energetic, I managed to get almost everyone to dance along while I was singing Keindahan Pantai by A. Romzi. For the first time in my life, I felt like accomplished! Haha.. Now i know how Beyonce fells after every performance! Chewah!

Ok, enough with that. So, a little summary of my life. Now, I am already in Semester 3! Time flies so quickly. I felt like yesterday I came to Australia. And for this semester, I have 2 Mid Terms. Frankly speaking, I wasn't ready to sit for Mid Terms, let alone the final exam. But, had no choice, so I sat for those Criminal B and Entrepreneurship anyway. It was pretty disappointing because I think I did badly (the results haven't out yet!). Well, you can actually know how you did based on how you answered it, and if you did badly, you can actually expect what the result is. For both papers, in which I took all in the same day, and it was on Monday, I basically went around the bushes. Keep writing the same thing over and over again. Frankly speaking, I did not know how to elaborate the answers more than I did. So, when they expect me to write the whole 2 pages, i did for 1 and 1/10 pages! And that was for my Entrepreneurship paper.

As for my Crim B paper, it was an online kind of exam. 50 minutes for 25% of the total marks! 2 questions, with 2 subs each, making it 4 questions, not 2! 25 minutes allocated for each 2 questions. It took me 5 minutes to read and understand the scenario alone! 20 minutes left to type (even though it is a way faster than to write), and in that 20 minutes, 5 minutes were used for me to browse the legislations and cases! so only 15 minutes left to type it all! It was crazy!!

Ok, forget about that. It is done. Only hope for the best! Now I have a lot of assignments to be finished by next Monday (barely touched).

And currently, I sort of have mood swings. I was energetic during the Citra Malaysia, but kind of helpless when it comes to studies! There are a lot of things going on right now. House problems, relationship problems, presidential problem (ooh anyway, I am currently the President for Bond University Malaysian Association!) and studies problem. I saw a lot of people read books. seriously, they read books! How the heck they do that?

And the only thing that motivates me right now is my Property Law subject. I know that subject is incredibly complex and hard! but i kinda get to grasp the concept. I did well in my tutorials! I could answer some of the tutorial's questions. Right now, the only thing I must do is to quickly make the legislation template for this subject. I could not afford to fail this subject! I gave a lot of effort to this subject, so dear Allah, please make it worth! InsyaAllah..

So, and one more thing, I am kind of missing my family in Malaysia. Especially my youngest little brother, Syahmi Raziq! And right now, there are a lot of things going on there, and I am not a part of it. Maybe that is the reason why I feel kind of empty right now. When all of your family members are now doing something together, you are not there to feel the togetherness and that makes you feel bad! Seriously! But what to do. Assume that I have something else more important to do in here. I may not be a part of that, but deep inside my heart, we will always be.

I am not only missing my families, but also my friends and life in Malaysia! There are something that makes me feel incomplete. I wish I could finish my degree as soon as possible (thanks to Bond University anyway for providing this 2 years and 8 months program for Law degree!). I just want to make it even sooner. I really want to go back to Malaysia and resume all those happy life I had before. Just saying!

I wanted to write and write and write until I can no longer write. But i have some things to attend to. So, I bet, till my next post, we meet again!

adios!

Heartbroken...?

2011-08-14T23:38:00.002+08:00

There are many people getting heartbroken everyday. Amazingly, there are many people falling in love in every single minute too (I don't have a statistical fact, but I guess so). To me, as a guy, getting heartbroken may not be a big deal maybe because I barely have so many relationship before. Ok, I probably once had a getting-serious kind of relationship but it was sort of my fault maybe because I wasn't ready. Now..? hehe.. have no idea..

Ok. As a guy however, I think I might know how it feels to be left heartbroken. Especially when it was for something that is extremely unreasonable and unpredictable. The breaking was unjustified and no matter how hard you try to make it rational, it will never be. Say it, all in a sudden, without telling you the reason or anything, it ends just like that.

To me, this is something that not only ridiculous, but socially unacceptable too. I do feel that it is a poor thing it happened. At least, have some courtesy to have some explanations with you and perhaps it won't be too much a hurt for them to accept. But simply end it like that? What kind of person are you? You don't play with people's feelings.

I think, people who were being left heartbroken deserve a better life. At least not to commit with the same guy/girl again. I do feel that if one thing did not go as what we have planned, it may not be the best for us. As a muslim, we must believe in Qada' and Qadar from Allah. Everything is planned only by Him and only Him to make it happen if He wished so. What we can do is to plan. So, if one thing did not go as well, do not despair. Allah is there to help you. What we can do is to move on and maybe take glimpse of the past so that we don't make the same mistake. Perhaps, the second plan would be the better plan for us. Who knows. Life is full of unexpected things. One day we plan A, something came up, we cancel it, we make plan B, or C or D...

The main thing is, never put an end to your hope. Always seek forgiveness from Allah and keep asking for our best. Maybe he/she is meant not for us but others. At least we know they are not meant for us...

Ok all. My whole point of posting all these is, keep moving on. If you can't do that, you will only show that you are really not meant for him/her. At least we know it now than latter... take a break and

Take things for granted?

2011-08-11T14:46:00.002+08:00

There are things that we sometime take for granted. A lot of things around us.. we just never realised that. Once we realised we had taken something for granted, we will regret everything. But the problem with regretting is, we will never make it to the past and perhaps repeat it all over again so the mistake won't happen.

This is a concept Allah has created how time is not recoverable. We can't go back to the past and change everything so we will have a better future. The reason behind this is perhaps, Allah wants to warn us, how important it is to be careful in everything we do. In fact, in studying for example, we have to be very careful in managing our time so that we won't be left behind by others. Manage your time carefully so that you will have sufficient amount of time to do revision when the exam week arrives. The concept that has wisdom but people are ignorant of that.

I have been thinking about a few things yesterday on how ungrateful a person is especially when it comes to their own interest. Take for example, a boy who receives a great gifts from someone. it was actually a valuable toy. Once receiving that new and expensive toy, that boy easily dumped the old toys and no longer played with them. But then, the expensive toy, to a certain time, broken and irreparable. so now, the boy has nothing (like Russell Peter says, Nothing *in indian accent).

This is another concept of taking things for granted. We never appreciate things that we already have, but instead, keep looking for something more and more. In this situation, if the boy is everyone else but me, i would say, 'SERVE YOU RIGHT!' or "PADAN MUKA"! The reason is, i can't stand looking to someone who is easily forgetting other people when s/he found someone else better or perhaps, prettier or nicer..? It is just extremely unforgivable.

Here we are. In this life, we always think that we have already done a right thing when it is actually not. We always thing what we did was right and no one else is rightful but us (or me as an individual). This is where we get it wrong. Doing right things at the wrong time is somehow still a wrong thing. Doing a wrong thing at the wrong time is, well obviously a wrong thing. So, whenever we feel that we area doing right things, think twice. If not enough, think thrice.. Because we will never know what would it turn out in the future. So, never disregard other people's advice and think carefully.

For those who understand the implied meaning of this post, or 'these posts', i know sometimes my thought is extremely ridiculous. Say what ever you want. Just so you know, this is what I feel, what it feels when you were in the position you wish would never happen.

Thank you.

Adios Amigo :)

Almost one year..

2011-08-11T14:34:00.002+08:00

Hi there.. It's been a while i haven't updated this blog. In conjunction with the holy month of Ramadhan, I would like to take this opportunity to greet everyone Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak.. May everything we do will be blessed by the Mighty Allah. InsyaAllah..

In regards to the post's title, it is almost one year. Getting into this holy month would definitely remind me of the 2nd most awaited moment, the Eid. Technically, this upcoming Eid will be the complete 1 year since the last year's Eid incident, well, in the Muslim's Lunar calendar of course. That was the moment I received a very shocking news from someone. The news i have never expected. The last person I would like to receive the the news from. But, it happened.

Alhamdulillah. The incident has made me realised on one thing. If there is truth, sooner or later, it will show itself. The truth will reveal itself. It does not need me to acknowledge the truth to that person because it is now being revealed, all by itself. Deep inside my heart, perhaps it is a lesson well learned.

Anyway, in this holy month, I, Muhd Syafiq Hamidan, humbly ask for everyone's forgiveness for EVERY single thing I have been sinned for. Truly, I apologies for the dumbness and stupidity as well as for the immaturity all this while. For those who are now reading this, (i know you are reading this), please accept my decency and may Allah bless you.

Salam Mubarak!

It is all about you.

2011-05-26T20:27:00.006+08:00

I've been told about the final match and surprisingly, it did not go well, well at least as what we expected. It is a common thing after every match that when we are the one loosing, so many thoughts coming into our head such as:
1. Never mind, we'll try again harder next year..
2. It is a common thing. Win and lost.
3. Maybe we tried not hard enough. Well, check it back on us

But, the truth is, is that what really happening? Or it is just a reason to make us feel better? I am pretty sure, many of them who ever been in such situation know how hurt it is, when we actually tried our best, even it was the best out of us, and we lost, we feel like it is already the end of the whole world.

So, i am not commenting on any side, not even to be on any side. But I too am a human. So, i must pick a side. Well, obviously, it will always be them.

I must say that it hurts a lot. And I have a proof. I have been through it many times and for every times, i tried to be rational. But human nature can't really make us control everything for a long period of time, and when it comes to the moment where we can no longer hold it, we explode. Like a timing bomb. We started to fell that world has not treated us justly and fairly. Everything is a lie and we cannot stand it anymore. (and by world, I do not mean the fate the God has set for us, but the system that mankind made to rule us)

So, my point here is, if we really feel that world has treated us unfairly, then make something that will show it to the world that we are doing just fine. Make amend if there is anything we have wronged, and keep improving ourselves. The only thing matters is not how far we have reached, but rather how much effort, how much strength, and how much thing we have sacrificed to be at the point we are now. But of course winning is actually a thing that matters. but if we are not the winner, does not mean we are a loser.

So, I think everyone knows what I am talking about. And you might think that I am defending them and i can't accept the fact that we lost. Whatever it is, I believe everything happened for at least a reason. I will accept whatever the reason is, because I know them the best - well everyone knows them the best.

For that, I still want to congratulate them for whatever level they have reached. People judged us. Judge alone is not a good indication whether a thing is good or bad. That is why we have trial by judge (not in Malaysia obviously), because it is judged by mostly peers. Sometime, we have to take into account what other people see us. They might have a different angle and view point. So, if they say we are bad, then probably we are.

For Cikgu Muhammad, thanks a lot lot lot lot... Only Allah knows how can all your efforts, knowledge and times and money can be paid off. Nothing on this Earth can replace the quality you have. You have always been someone that i looked up to and even until now, you are still the one in my heart. I love the way you comfort us when we are in need of motivation and every thought you have said is so insightful. If there is anything I can do just to have your words, I would. Thank you so much.

So, that is it. The end of the journey for this year. May the upcoming years be better and let us beat them all. What is done is done and keep moving on. Cheers.

p/s: think at the bright side. What would have we done if the results is the other way? Think about it.

Screwed-up

2011-05-11T19:32:00.003+08:00

Here I am, writing again, letting people know about what is wrong and what is right.. Ok now let me tell you about being selfish. Well, I am not the one to decide what is wrong and right but I just happen to know what is wrong and what is right.

I don’t know why I hate certain kind of people that when what they are doing their whole life is supposedly to be loveable by people, instead of making people at ease, they tend to be the most annoying people on planet Earth. Yes, that is the kind of people that I’m talking about, that is, people who believed they do many good things, right things, and it’s a lot, when unconsciously, they screw up their relationship with people around them.

I refuse to give any example because it only hurts me more. But still, I cant resist to talk about them, simply because they think that they are so perfect when in fact they are not. I was thinking deeply, day and night, and suddenly realised that there is no way you can avoid this kind of people because they are unbeatable. I am pretty sure that the more you counter argue with them, the more annoying they will be and believe me, you won’t stand a chance in that fight.

Ok, I know, we are not supposed to back-mouthing good people because they do good things more than us, but if they don’t know how to preserve good relationship with people around them, what’s the point of doing all those good deeds when they cant even honour the relationship with people? I must say those people are a jerk. I don’t know. Maybe we should let them read the whole books of inter and intra personal skill and only then they will become a better man? Perhaps..?

I am not to say I am perfect. Nor that people other than those kinds of people are perfect too. But what I am saying is, stop being a jerk. Just because they do many good deeds than many of us, the not-so-devoted-to-good-things people do, doesn’t make them any better than us. I mean, please being tolerable and please understand people. There are so many ways to approach people, different ways to correct people from their mistakes and most importantly, please know how to take a good care of other people’s feelings. It is okay if you want to be a heartless, but do keep this in mind, we have feelings too. Do not treat all people the same way you treat your best friends, your so manly-boyish-only-god-knows-how-strong-and-rough-and-tough-persons-you-are friends because they are not the same with people that have hearts.

You can ask people to do something but could you just ask it nicely? If you had done it nicely, without having to backfire people and impliedly being sarcastic, nothing will be wrong with you people. In fact, you guys will be great and perfect! But you people never learn anything from other people because you guys are selfish! You ignorant-big-headed people! And I must say, I don’t like this kind of people. You can hate me for what I’m doing but at least, I’m trying to improve myself. And whenever I tried to do nice things, you people discourage me with your screwed-up attitude that always think you are always right. And without being understanding, you guys annoy me. Yes, it’s becoming personal now.

What, people in my life didn’t know how things work? Like all people in your life are so perfect that you have rights to condemn other people? To the hell you can! Well, one thing for sure, my parents never taught me of being rude to other people, and always respect and accept people for what they are. You can have you heavenly-good family all the way you want, but other people have family too! You think your family always teaches you the most right things? Well, other people have it too! Differences in what other people have don’t give you a right to be judgmental and think the rest of them are worse. Different people have different value and perception. Can’t you just hold on to that? I can say that you have different things that you value, but I wont confront you like there is only one value exists in this life because I know whatever you have, whatever people think must be respected. And we can never ever question those values because in return, it will only hurt and offend them and this is where things come to worse.

Ok, getting back to the point, I know, there are right and wrong things. But I must say that it is time for you people to get out of your own cocoon and learn people’s more comforting way to handle human beings. You people need to know how to deal with living people and without having to annoy them, grow up and learn something from life. You guys are pathetic!

Respect and accept!

2011-05-09T23:36:00.007+08:00

As I grow up, there are a lot of things that have taught me about life. Some of them teach me about responsibility and accountability, self-motivation and etc etc… Even better, the more we make a full use of those lessons, the better person we will be. It is just a matter of time. If we cannot make it right and prefer to be silent and a watcher instead of an actor, then we are at loss.

When we are in a foreign land, far, far away from our homeland, I have learnt that we must not in any way insult the foreign country. One thing for sure, we are already a foreigner and being a foreigner, insulting the country seems not to be a good idea. For instance, we have to admit that different country, different place, different land are all having different culture, tradition, and even food and cuisines. Doesn’t matter what are the dishes that they have every day and night, what are t heir activities in the day up to at night, as long as we are there, we must accept to learn and understand their way of life and respect them for what they do. I mean, as long as those behaviours are morally acceptable, I don’t think there is a reason to not to accept it.

I know that some people might say, we as a Malaysian must be proud of our country, and never to lose our identity as a Malaysian. Yes I get it. But it doesn’t mean you have to be proud all the time that you refused to acknowledge other people’s differences. I mean, as a student, that is the point the Government sending students abroad so that we are not only confined with so-called Malaysian way of life. Some people might have done so much better than us that we have never known about it.

Well, practically speaking, I do admit that the use of water in toilet is not Aussie’s way but Malaysians, well, considering the needs of Muslims for cleanliness. So, not having water pipe in toilets doesn’t give us a reason to condemn their way of life because if the cleanliness is the concern, there is always a way to use water, well at least sufficient enough for the needs of Muslims to clean themselves after toilet time. But do you know, even without the use of water in their toilets, their toilets are still smelt much less stinker that those we have in Malaysia? Even better, their floor is much cleaner and whiter than most of toilets in Malaysia. This made me wonder that even in the absence of water, in which we know it as a cleaning agent in cleanliness, they are still visitable. In fact, I think the use of water in Malaysia’s toilets is the factor why we have such a bad condition even for a public toilet. Or can I say, it is people’s mentality that makes it a difference? If that is so, which people seem to have a higher class of mentality? We should ask ourselves then.

That will be one of the examples that I can draw from my 4 months stay in this land. And the lesson I have learnt from it is the ability to accept people’s social state without being judgemental. We cant straight away jump to the conclusion that they are not civilised, not ethical, and many other things. And speaking of ethics, do you know that they will really stop their car at the zebra cross whenever there are pedestrian crossing over the streets? And even if there is no a zebra cross, they will still stop their vehicles and let the pedestrian go first? How’s that? Can we just compare it with our ethics back then in Malaysia? There is a huge gap I shall say.

Well, I am not to praise Aussie too much and back mouthing my own country. I never intend that. I just want to let you know that the value of respecting people and accepting people as what they are, are very important. Comparing and condemning are two different things though, and yet, we have to be careful with what we are saying because we will never know what are their feelings when they are in Malaysia. Could be even worse than we thought it was. So, learn, and adapt, and at the same time, stay Malaysian.

Regret

2011-05-06T16:36:00.001+08:00

I have been flipping through the albums and videos we took couple of years ago and I must say, I was surprised to know how much things have changed now. Some moment I feel sad and some I feel good and happy. But knowing that everything has almost changed, I can’t say anything anymore. Deep inside my heart, I admit how silly were some of those things. And I do admit how I miss those moments where everyone sits together, enjoys their meals together, and laughs whenever we make jokes and fun of each other. Sadly, those moments are already a memory and nothing we can do to have it again.

Sometime, I was thinking that if I could make a wish, I wish that those moments could be repeated for infinite times. I just don’t know what has happened now. Everything seems to be wrong and falling apart. There is no more laughter we usually do and everything is gloomy, all sad-looking and unhappiness are all around. A lot of things have changed ever since. I can say that some of us are at fault. But, beyond that, there is something important that is no longer there.

I still remember, in one of the footages we took, how even with a silly joke, everyone laughs. Even with a stupid word, stupid act and a lot of other kind of stupidity, we still have fun. And together, we can embrace the spirit. On top of that, the feeling of togetherness was there. I don’t know how we feel now, but for sure, the feeling is not the same anymore. I don’t know.

So now, I can say that we are at loss. We lose everything that worth to everyone. But then, no one seems to be worried and concerned about it. Not even to bring us back together and have what we once have had. Everything seems so wrong. Awkwardness is the main subject for every meeting. Guilty is the reason behind those silences. And amazingly, no one cares!

So, if there were anything I can do to make it up to them again, I would do it. I don’t mind if it means I have to bring myself to the lowest level because I know, what’s there an ego if you can’t seize the happiness in life. Nothing is worthy more than good times and joyful moment together. If the subjects that I am talking to are reading this post, please, make things right all over again. Doesn’t matter how wrongful or innocent you are, please, get back together, and let us do it our way, like what we have done before.

In the end, it is not about who is the winner, but the meaning of being a winner.

Done.

2011-02-26T17:26:00.001+08:00

I was impressed by one of my speeches during the presentation that day. I never know that I can be that spontaneous (even though it is still barely a good thing) but I managed to clearly express my thoughts and ideas in front of more than 50 people in a lecture hall. The point that I made was actually something that really came out from my heart and the only thing that reflect me, literally.

So, it was all about making a decision. I told them that, in everything we do, we do it for good. There are a lot of things that require us to decide and there is no other option available. So, instead of choosing an easy way, I opted a hard and challenging one. The main reason for that is that, I do believe that it is always better to suffer first, live happily ever after in the end, compared to live happy and suffer later. That’s the idea.

******************

The idea is pretty elegant. After a few days, I kept thinking about something that really matter in my life, but someone just make it like it is not. (Let us assume it is a HE). I have no idea why on earth would someone treat you so badly, when in fact you tried to make them happy in every single aspect of their life and yet, it is not worth the effort. I am fine if you don’t want to appreciate what I have done. But I am not fine if you are being disrespectful not only to me, but to the rest of people who really care about you. You know it. But you just pretend that you don’t.

You know what, this kind of attitude is shameful. I was once having this thought that you will be someone successful and everything you wish came true. But then, I have this second thought saying that, no, you won’t. The fact that you behave in the opposite way your attitude is, I am not sure whether it will happen, again.

Believe me. I can see you. You are just a screwed up person who doesn’t even know what are you up to. If you happened to work in a team, you are just a spoiler who always brings down the quality of teamwork.

********************

This has just come out of my mind too. I didn’t realise that this article can be referred to another person that has exactly the same quality as the main subject I am intended to describe. So, let me continue…

If.. If you think that you are always right, nothing is wrong with you and assume that everyone likes you, then you are a pathetic. Come on. Can’t you see it? Everyone likes you not because of you. We have our own motivation and our own goal. We were just using you and you just don’t know it. They want something from you. Something that you never realised, taken away from you slowly and now, it seems like you have nothing else left.

You think you are happy now? Well let us wait and see how will it be. A lot of people talk behind your back. You don’t know it. They don’t like you and you don’t know it.

So, here is my advice. Stop being such a jerk and grow up, man. The world does not revolve around you. This world is not all about you. People have tonnes of other thing to do. Stop messing up with people’s life. It is not wrong to think as an adult.

***********************

Someone has taught me not to quit in everything I do. Quitting is not the best thing to do. A lot of people will get hurt. A lot of people will be affected, physically and mentally. In short, quitting is not the best option.

HOWEVER, in my case, I want to give it an exception. Sorry dear, I think I have to quit certain things that are no longer relevant to my life. I am not afraid of making a wrong decision because I know it is worth it. I have acquired a lot of things in my life. In fact my achievements lately are kind of enough for me. I don’t need to have it again because my time for it has over. I am not going to do it anymore because it hurts a lot.

I know. It was my fault too. I wasn’t being professional. In fact, I mixed them up with my personal feelings that shouldn’t have happened at the first place. I am the one that screwed it up with my own action, so I think it is my responsibility to clean up the mess that I have made.

Thank you…

Lightning dont strike the same place twice

2011-02-17T13:01:00.001+08:00

Final round...!!!!

2010-10-19T19:09:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum w.b.t..

Kepada sidang pembaca sekalian...
Merujuk kepada tajuk di atas...
Maka, kini aku sudah masuk ke pusingan terakhir
untuk pengajian Pra-Uni aku di sini...

Untuk pengetahuan sekalian pembaca,
aku kini berada di minggu-minggu akhir
sebelum peperiksaan akhir SAM bermula...
Inilah 2 minggu yang terakhir,
sebelum aku sendiri menentukan nasib dan masa depan aku sendiri...
Minggu yang akan menentukan sama ada aku akan ke negeri orang ataupun tidak..

Maka dengan itu, aku dengan rendah diri dan hatinya...
ingin memohon jutaan ampun dan maaf...
buat sekalian manusia yang pernah terlibat dengan diriku
sama ada secara langsung ataupun tidak...
bagi diriku, aku juga manusia..
banyak melakukan dosa dan kesilapan sesama kita manusia..
aku juga kadang-kadang alpa dan leka..
ada juga terlanjur bicara..
apatah lagi terkasar bahasa...

Ibu dan bapaku...
barakah, doa dan restu yang aku pohonkan..
terima kasih atas segala yang dah diusahakan..
moga mampu aku membalasnya..

aku juga memohon restu dan berkat ilmu daripada sekalian pembaca..
moga segala amal yang dicurahkan akan membantuku mencapai cita-citaku..

Terutama buat semua warga pendidik di Taylor's College...
Cikgu2 di Sekolah Dato' Abdul Razak, Seremban...
Cikgu2 di Sekolah Kebangsaan Dangi...

kalian semua amat banyak berjasa padaku..
dan buat kesekian kalinya ini, aku memohon keberkatan anda semua..
restu dan iringan doa untuk aku menempuhi saat2 kritikal ini..
moga dipermudahkan segala urusan dan amalan ku..

Buat rakan-rakan..
ampunkan salah dan silapku..
semua yang aku lakukan atas kelemahan diri aku...
maafkan aku.. doakan aku..

Peperiksaan aku akan bermula 1 November ini..
sehingga 10 November...
5 subjek kesemuanya...
14 jam jumlah keseluruhan masa menjawab...
moga diberikan ketenangan dan kemudahan aku menjawab soalan dengan tepat..

TERIMA KASIH SEMUA

Alahai....

2010-09-29T17:49:00.006+08:00

sekali dengar mesti mengeluh kan??

sebenarnya tidak.. ini tanda kepuasan..

Mengapa yer?? Mari kita baca...~

Hari raya kan hari mulia..

sepatutnya di pagi raya ni x sepatutnya lah kita buat musuh kan??

Tapi, adalah seorang makhluk Allah ni..

Beliau jarang mesej saya..

10 yang saya hantar, setengah yang dibalasnya...

macam tu lah..

I had no idea, why on earth, someone yang tak ade angin tak ada ribut,

terus hantar mesej.. ingatkan nak ucap raya

maaf zahir batin la kan??

tapi, cemuhan yang diberi..

Tak mengapalah... aku pun agak2 faham lah kenapa...

sebab memang ramai yang dok bercerita pasal budak ni..

memang ramai yang kata dia ni kurang hajar..

Tak tahu hormat orang dan sebagainya..

Tapi, kata orang kan, apa nak peduli...

Beginilah..

Kita kalau tak tahu, cakap je la tak tahu..

kita jangan ego.. its not wrong to admit your mistake..

To you, i do admit i did something wrong..

and ive learned from it..

you?? you didnot!!

Kita ni hidup jangan lah nak buat musuh je..

ngan ketua kumpulan, kapten pasukan sendiri pon nak buat lawan..

susah la oiiiii...

Orang yang suka buat musuh ni,

dia rasa diri dia je betul..

tak pernah nak mengaku kesalah diri masing2..

Cuba kalau dia mengaku salah dia, dan maafkan diri orang lain,

kan ke x nampak egoistiknya tu...?

Dan janganlah rasa diri kita ni besar sangat...

Kau juara? Hebat ker?

Kau anak datuk, anak Tan Sri, anak tokey minyak, tokey balak..

Hebat ker??

Mungkinlah hebat..

tapi kalau perangai cam orang bodoh x berakal jer..

HEbat ker??

Sidag pembaca sekalian..

Hidup ni kita tak boleh riak..

kita tak boleh bongkak..

Kalau betul lah jantan sangat, handle things like a man lah..

dont be so childish, and show your stupidity even more...

Dan satu je lagi..

HORMAT!!

pernah takdengar orang tua2 cakap..

orang yang tak tahu hormat orang lain ni,

maknanya masa kecil, mak ayah nya tak pernah ajar cara hormat orang..

dan dia tu sendiri memang tak de rasa hormat kat mak ayah nya..

haa.. so, sesiapa yang rasa dia pernah hilang hormat, its time to change...

Saya bayangkan satu situasi.. (contoh ni langsung tidak berkait ya.. Saya tak pernah minum!!)

Ada kawan anda datang...

kita memang tahu dia ni kaki botol...

dan suatu hari, korang berdua berjalan bersama...

dan dia minum..

dia bagi anda minum..

before that, anda memang tahu minum tu x bagus...

and haram di sisi agama..

tapi, atas desakan kawan tu, maka anda pun minumlah..

walaupun bukan dengan kerelaan...
anda lakukannnya, setiap kali anda dengan kawan anda ni...

Suatu hari, anda gaduh dengan kawan ni,

terus anda pon mencaci dan menghina kawan anda ni..

kononnya kaki mabuk, kaki todi...

dan berazam nak bagi tahu semua orang yang dia tu kaki mabuk..

Pada pendapat anda, perlu ker dia buat macam tu??

sedangkan dia pon dulu minum jugak.. mabuk jugak..

Hanya kerana pada masa tu dia disuruh, dan kononnya nak jaga hati kawan dia

dia rasa dia bukan seorang pemabuk...

Come on boy!!

thats just not the way..

Yang kawan tu pon bleh gak bagitau semua orang yang kau tu kaki mabuk..

sebab memang ramai dah tahu yang kawan ko tu kaki todi..

just yang orang tak tau, kau tu kaki mabuk!!!

It makes you no other different than your friend..

kalau dari awal tak nak, cakap je lah tak nak...

tak perlu lah nak jaga hati lah, apa lah..

hello, ko pon kaki mabuk jugak lah kalau camtu!!!

boooooooo!!! Bodoh!!

ok,, tamat sudah contoh yang tak berapa murni ni..

(cerita asalnya bukan mabuk2 ni ok!!??)

Kesimpulannya...~

Kalau kau rasa apa yang kau buat tu betul,

go ahead!!

okok.. jap..

ada satu lagi....

dah lah yang budak tu buat hal..

akak dia pon nak buat hal kat aku..

(no offence to her boyfriend, ok!!??)

You dont have your respect on me

whos the hell care about it??

Eh halo!! Aku ni tak mati lah kalau ko tak respect orang..

kau tak tahu asal usul cerita,

dok dengar cerita dari adik yang dok terangkat2 tu,

ko diam la..

Sebab kan kau lah, anak buah gaduh ngan kapten..

ko tahu ke citer tu??

Damn shit you dont know..

sebab aper? Sebab its none of your business!!

Ok lah...

you removed me from your friend list,

fine..

it doesnt make me any worse..

One thing:

EVERYONE KNOWS ABOUT YOU!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING, WITH WHOM ARE YOU WITH, WHERE ARE YOU, EVERYTHING!!..

SCREW YOU!! B****H!~

Update...

2010-09-29T17:45:00.003+08:00

Salam muhibbah buat semua..

Alhamdulillah, setelah berbolan2, akhirnya terdaya juga aku mengupdate blog ini...

sebelum itu, sedikit update:

MERDEKA: Pergi celebrate kat The Curve, then Dataran Merdeka.. And lastly, ader ler...

PUASA: PENUH tanpa cuti

: Shopping raya juga...

RAYA: tak lah beraya sangat... sebab sibuk dengan study.. (x de lah study manerpon... just risau je lebih nak trial exam... ahaha)

: Best la kot.. raya ngan family...

TRIAL EXAM: baru je habis minggu lepas... macam biasa, keputusan x de lah memberangsangkan... sangat... so, still wanna strive for the finals..

NOW: merisaukan Final Exam yang akan start 1 November sehinggalah 10 November...

Sekadar Renungan..

2010-08-18T10:37:00.002+08:00

‎"tidak akan masuk syurga orang yang memutuskan silaturrahim"

-(muttafaq 'alaih)-

walau insan bercerai kasih, tidak semesti silaturrahim disisih.

Not because of you.. bear in mind please??

2010-08-17T11:11:00.006+08:00

Living in a confusing world makes us confused as well..

some people just dont get it..

yet, they tend to misjudge people

no matter who the people are..

-End of the conversation-

Throughout my life, Ive gone through so many bittersweet memories..

Starting from the day i was born, till now..

I've met quite a lot of people..

Those narcisists, judmentalists, and many..

There are also some people who are just lovely, pure hearted, and kind from inside..

I did a lot of things in my life..

Sacrificing almost everything..

(only if people look at it that way..)

Yet, there are some people who just dont get it..

Ive experienced this "crazed by people" situation..

(its not syok sendiri, ok??)

They are just too obsessed with me, and i dont know why..

so, i decided to reject them, cos i felt uneasy with that..

firstly, its someone thet i never know, never meet in person, and only from facebook conversation..

Only then i realised how the feeling is, when being chased by people..

(ahaha)

For those people related to this,

just want to let you know..

I AM DOING THIS NOT BECAUSE OF YOU!!!

its because of the responsibilities..

and the hopes people gave to me..

So, bear in mind..

Last words,

I am now backing off..

so, berbahagialah kamu..

andai suatu masa nanti kau terbang tinggi,

jatuhlah kau kembali ke bumi..

Moga kau berdarah, tulang mu patah..

barulah kau tahu susahnya hidup di dunia..

Tidak semua perkara yang diimpikan akan dapat..

Kau fikirlah rasional..

if u think u are doing right thing, keep doing it.

Cause i dont think u are..

And i will be so happy

to see u doing wrong things, at the wrong place, at the wrong time..

ADIOS AMIGO...~

Mereka Kebanggaanku…~

2010-08-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah…

Piala Perdana Menteri 2010 telahpun melabuhkan tirainya..

Walaupun disudahi dengan sedikit kontroversi…

Maklumlah.. mungkin kerana peminat yang terlalu fanatik agaknya..

Tidak mengapalah…

JUMAAT, 30 Julai 2010

Aku bergegas untuk solat Jumaat… dan sempat juga menjamu selera di bazar depan masjid SS15 tuh…

Then, bertemankan Enche’ Adri, maka perjalanan ke ~~Dangi~~ Bangi dimulakan…

Pada mulanya ada petanda seakan tidak baik..

Dekat Subang lagi dah masuk salah jalan..

Dan akibatnya, sehingga sampai ke Bangilah kami sesat..

(2.5 jam ye diambil dari Subang Jaya ke Bandar Baru Bangi!!!)

GPS.. ye lah.. Teknologi lah sangat… RAMP tu aper!!??

Sampai je kat Amani Hotel, budak2 debat tiada…

Rehersal lah katanya.. tak mengapa..

Sempat juga kami menjamu selera di warung bawah hotel tu..

(walaupun selepas tu sakit perut!!!)

Then, ada pula SDARA yang nak sponsor hotel di Putrajaya…

Pullman Lakeside namanya..

Di sini, sempat jugalah menyentap ya..

maklumlah.. masing2 bila dah ramai2 ni, tempat pon best,

(RAMAI: Illyas, Hazwan, Munir, Sheikh – rombongan dari UTP)

barang dalam ~~keranda~~ kereta pon lupa nak ambil..

Tak pe.. Selaku Old Boy yang baik hati dan tidak kisah,

kami angkat kan lah untuk mereka..

Sampai di hotel, sempat bermock ~~cheque~~ debat..

UPSR PMR wajar dimansuhkan..

Ex debater kerajaan.. Debater ~~Pembangang~~ pembangkang lah…
Sayangnya, mock ni tidak dihadiri Thalhah..

Demam katanya… x pe lah..

Kemudian, habis.. sesi menyiapkan perkakas dan miscellaneous items lah.

Sempat juga aku mengilatkan kasut mereka..

Barulah nampak padan dengan kot baru…

Dan nametag yang kusematkan pada kot tu,

nampak sangat segak dan gah di atas pentas…

Tahniah!!!

Setelah selesai sesi meluahkan perasaan (telus)

kot-kot ada yang tidak puas hati dan sebagainya,

maka kami pon tidur lah…

(ooops, masih ada juga yang berjaga sampai 4 pagi)

SABTU, 31Julai 2010

Semua bangun dengan semangat..

Solat Subuh berjemaah, tangan ditadah…

Doa dibaca, moga-moga berjaya..

Tiba di PICC tepat pukul 11.00 pagi..

Selepas peserta masuk ke dewan untuk makan tengah hari

aku pon ke dewan utama

terjumpa dengan cikgu Wan (english teacher)

Dapatlah kupon makan free..

Terjumpa pula dengan Mugem, Aidil dan Irfan..

(sanggup juga mereka ni amek flight dari kedah)

ting tang ting tang alexander, perlawanan pon bermula..

USUL: UPSR dan PMR Wajar Dihapuskan

Kerajaan: SBPI Gombak

Pembangkang: SDAR lah kan???

Perlawanan sengit..

Budak2 sumer all out..

Walaupun ada yang flop, tapi still perform…

KEPUTUSAN:

SDAR menang…

Pembahas Terbaik??

Adzlan Qushaimi..

Maka, berakhirlah penantian 28 tahun SDAR untuk bergelar

JOHAN

Pertandingan Bahas Bahasa Melayu

Piala Perdana Menteri

Nampaknya, piala yang dihadiahkan oleh Tun Abdul Razak

Kembali ke sekolah yang mengabadikan namanya sendiri

Sekolah Dato’ Abdul Razak…

PERUTUSAN:

ADZLAN:

Tahniah atas kejayaan berganda… Anda memang layak menerimanya.. segala kepahitan dan kesusahan yang pernah dilalui, walaupun dilempari tohmahan, anda telah buktikan anda mampu melakukan… Semoga bakat yang sedia ada akan dicambah dan dikembangbiakkan pada adik2 yang lain… Juga cambahkanlah pada peringkat tinggi nanti… (kalau fly, bakat tu terhentilah seketika…) haha…

LUQMAN:

Tahniah juga buat anda.. walaupun banyak ~~kangkangan~~ kekangan yang mendatang, akhirnya anda tahu memilih mana yang kaca mana yang permata.. Bak kata anda, jangan nanti jadi seperti peniaga buluh kasap… Harapnya, anda pun sama tidak akan jadi seperti itu.. Perjalanan masih jauh… There is a say “if you want a success, put your personal feeling aside… And don’t piss on your achievement”

THALHAH:

~~Thaniah~~ Tahniah juga sekali lagi… Anda beraksi dengan baik di atas sana.. Kuatkan azam dan semangat untuk meneruskan perjuangan, terutama untuk tahun depan.. Bila dah hilang sorang “anchor”, jangan mudah dibawa ombak yer…? Dan u looked great on the stage that day…~

MUSTAQIM:

Anda juga banyak menyumbang pada kejayaan pasukan… Tahun depan giliran anda pula… Apa yang penting, (selain kerjasama) anda perlu nekad tekad dan iktikad untuk meneruskan legacy (warisan / ~~Genereasi~~) yang diturunkan ini.. ini adalah tanggungjawab.. dan jangan sesekali kita lari dari tanggungjawab kita.. Semoga berjaya…

ENCHE’ MUHAMMAD:

Satu je untuk cikgu:

“Terima Kasih Daun Keladi”

PUAN SHARIAH, PUAN ZAINAH, PUAN AISHAH:

Pun sama

“Jutaan apresiasi tidak terhingga”

KESIMPULAN:

Dalam hidup ni, manusia sesama manusia memang akan ada konflik.. Jangan nafikan perkara itu.. Tapi, sebagai manusia, perlu juga bijak mengandalikan konflik, agar tidak terus menjadi barah, akhirnya retak dan terbelah…
Rezeki semua terletak di tangan Allah.. Jangan pertikaikan ketentuan Ilahi… Man jada wa jada.. Samap-sama punya usaha, sama-sama berjaya…
Mendapat sesuatu itu memang mudah (tapi dalam kisah ini payah jugak..) tapi untuk mengekalkan kejayaan itu yang payah… “Menunding jari memang mudah, menyelesaikan itu yang payah” kata Luqman.. Maka, jangalah buat masalah.. tidak perlu selesaikan masalah…
Usaha, Maju, Jaya… Usaha Tangga Kejayaan.. yang paling penting, Berilmu Untuk Berjasa”

Jikalau dahulu Debat Satu Kisah,

Kemudian ia menjadi Debat Kisah Indah…

Kini, Debat Kisah Terindah..~

Dia mengejar kecemerlangan tanpa lupa daratan

Beperwatakan hebat, bersopan

Setinggi mana kejayaan ditempa

pulang mencium tangan ibu bapa

Di barisan hadapan sebagai pembela

Ilmu di dada menabur jasa

Semakin memuncak cita-cita

semakin tunduk pada yang Esa…

p/s: untuk melihat gambar, sila ke akaun Facebook saya… Juga ada video Debat Kisah Terindah di youtube.com… terima kasih…

Melayu...~

2010-07-28T16:30:00.002+08:00

Melayu itu orang yang bijaksana
Nakalnya bersulam jenaka
Budi bahasanya tidak terkira
Kurang ajarnya tetap santun
Jika menipu pun masih bersopan
Bila mengampu bijak beralas tangan.

Melayu itu berani jika bersalah
Kecut takut kerana benar,
Janji simpan di perut
Selalu pecah di mulut,
Biar mati adat
Jangan mati anak.

Melayu di tanah Semenanjung luas maknanya:
Jawa itu Melayu, Bugis itu Melayu
Banjar juga disebut Melayu,
Minangkabau memang Melayu,
Keturunan Acheh adalah Melayu,
Jakun dan Sakai asli Melayu,
Arab dan Pakistani, semua Melayu
Mamak dan Malbari serap ke Melayu
Malah mua´alaf bertakrif Melayu
(Setelah disunat anunya itu)
Dalam sejarahnyaMelayu itu pengembara lautan
Melorongkan jalur sejarah zaman
Begitu luas daerah sempadan
Sayangnya kini segala kehilangan
Melayu itu kaya falsafahnya
Kias kata bidal pusaka
Akar budi bersulamkan daya
Gedung akal laut bicara
Malangnya Melayu itu kuat bersorak
Terlalu ghairah pesta temasya
Sedangkan kampung telah tergadai
Sawah sejalur tinggal sejengkal
tanah sebidang mudah terjual
Meski telah memiliki telaga
Tangan masih memegang tali
Sedang orang mencapai timba.

Berbuahlah pisang tiga kali
Melayu itu masih bermimpi
Walaupun sudah mengenal universiti
Masih berdagang di rumah sendiri.

Berkelahi cara Melayu
Menikam dengan pantun
Menyanggah dengan senyum
Marahnya dengan diam
Merendah bukan menyembah
Meninggi bukan melonjak.

Watak Melayu menolak permusuhan
Setia dan sabar tiada sempadan
Tapi jika marah tak nampak telinga
Musuh dicari ke lubang cacing
Tak dapat tanduk telinga dijinjing
Maruah dan agama dihina jangan
Hebat amuknya tak kenal lawan
Berdamai cara Melayu indah sekali
Silaturrahim hati yang murni
Maaf diungkap senantiasa bersahut
Tangan diulur sentiasa bersambut
Luka pun tidak lagi berparut
Baiknya hati Melayu itu tak terbandingkan
Selagi yang ada sanggup diberikan
Sehingga tercipta sebuah kiasan:
“Dagang lalu nasi ditanakkan
Suami pulang lapar tak makan
Kera di hutan disusu-susukan
Anak di pangkuan mati kebuluran”
Bagaimanakah Melayu abad dua puluh satu
Masihkan tunduk tersipu-sipu?
Jangan takut melanggar pantang
Jika pantang menghalang kemajuan;
Jangan segan menentang larangan
Jika yakin kepada kebenaran;
Jangan malu mengucapkan keyakinan
Jika percaya kepada keadilan.

Jadilah bangsa yang bijaksana
Memegang tali memegang timba
Memiliki ekonomi mencipta budaya
Menjadi tuan di negara Merdeka
-Usman Awang-

Its more than a love...~

2010-07-23T00:42:00.004+08:00

I read my friend's blog post..

about LOVE.,.

So, i just want to show another side of love...

Told by so many people including what they implied in the movies..

Have you ever watched a scene

where there are 3 people..

A, B C..

And B are best friends..

One day C become their new friend..

As time passes by,

A started to fall in love with B..

so as the C who in love with B..

The different is, A loves B much more than C does..

But this B doesn't realise how much A loves..

In fact, this B loves C..

If you were to be in A place,

Most films will always make A to back off and just let go of B..

Why? Because A said

"I love B.. I would do whatever it takes just to make B happy.. And for me, as long as B is happy, that will make me happy too.."

Since B is only happy to be with C, A has to let B go..

No matter what A's feeling is...

A is willingly do that

for the sake of B...~

This is the reality..

We will never see the person that loves us very much..

We tend to see things in front of us,

without looking around else..

So, this is what we called as sacrifice..

Bear in mind that love is not only about sex..

it is also including the feeling...

And not necessary between a boy and a girl..

it can be love between family members..

love to nature..

love to animals..

in fact love to someone that we barely know them..

So love can be anything...

The biggest part of sacrificing is when we sacrifice our love

for the sake of other people..

No matter how hard it is,

there got some people who are just like that..

Whatever it takes,

B seems to live happily ever after..

but A who suffers a lot..

In fact, B's happiness are all coming from A's good deeds

but B just doesnt realise that...

When A tries to help B,

B thought A is trying to interfere B's life..

lets assume A as someone who are willing to do everything for B

even though they are not together,

A would help B rather than helping itself..

This is the nature of A..

And being B,

B knows A is so helpful, resourceful, and willing to do anything to B,

B always ask for A helps whenever it is needed..

Now my question is...

if you (readers) were to be in A shoes,

what would you do?

Keep doing good things??

Or just stop it since B seems like taking advantage on A??

Would it be any better if A drag itself out from the relationship

or just stay the same and see B happy, not with A??

What would you feel when someone who you care too much

doesnt even being nice to you??

In fact, they fuck up with you relationship??

Or would B in shy to confess love to A??

Or B is blinded by the egoism or what??

These are the situations that love would have..

For some people, it makes him happy..

For others, it hurts them even more..

Sometime, people get crazy because of love..

Is love blind??

or its just people who get their eyes blinded??

Not even bother to open their eyes

because they think its only love that matters..

its only their feeling that matters..

not other people feeling...

Demikianlah hidupnya di dunia ini..

Kita tidak boleh lari daripada realiti

yang sebenarnya ada kasih sayang sejati..

Hanya kita sahaja yang matanya dikaburi

daripada melihat budi dan pekerti..

Kita lebih sukakan butir2 kaca yang bertaburan..

berbanding mutiara di dasar lautan...

kita lebih mudah akur dan percaya pada orang lain

berbanding kawan baik kita sendiri..

p/s: my narrative is bad.. this story may not be as interesting as it would be.. but, the messages delivered that count..

Please dont judge my language because its not my intention here..

~i love you...~

Kasih bercampur sayang...~

2010-07-19T19:26:00.001+08:00

Khas buat mereka yang berkaitan...

puas kucari apakah punca

siang dan malam terbayang-bayang

patutlah sukar untuk kulupa

rupanya kasih bercampur sayang

ehsan daripada

-En Muhammad Md Derus-

huh.. harap2 la ye..?

2010-07-17T20:56:00.004+08:00

OK... first of all

yesterday was a tiring day..

Why?? Because of this boy yang suka kantoi2 barang..

(x mengeluh pon, sajer je nak cakap)

Paperpon, bukan sebab itu aku ke sana..

aku dijemput oleh cikgu..

maka, bermusafir la kami..

(walaupun assignment melambak...)

tapi, komitmen tetap kene teruskan..

kalau x de aku, siapalah lagi kan?

chewah.. poyo jek..

yesterday was a great day..

a great moment i would say..

to get around with those kids made me totally forget about the miserable life i have now..

so for me, its a good way to distress myself...

hurm..

i am gonna miss every precious moment i had..

"the slower we move, the faster we die"

betul ke??

Vive, ama, magna specta!

2010-06-27T03:11:00.006+08:00

Yeah!!!
It is now 3.33 o'clock in the morning

and I am still awake

cruising around the internet

with no purpose..

So, I decided to update my blog awhile..~

Damn, i really have no idea what to write..

So many things happened this week..

The date for CPT (legal assignment) has started...

and due on this Wednesday.. (6 days only!!!)

Finalising my ESL tutorial (english)

Will be presenting on... TOMORROW!!!

Missed Wind Orchestra Festival..

Which SDAR is the host for this year..

And I missed my chance to be the Emcee for the event.. Sigh..~

For the first time i pay my Maxis Postpaid Bill at Maxis Center in Sunway Pyramid..

Using the self access machine..

Its awesome!!!!

I get connected with so many people..

Boys and girls..

Even though i barely know them..

But they are just awesome..

There is a person who keep texting me with lovely words..

sweet la jugak.. (errrk....?)~

Last Thursday, i did my facial at Yves Rocher

Just because I wanted to meet someone the next day...

So, many things happened last week and this week...

and once again, thanx to those who are willing to get connected with me throughout these 2 weeks..

I love you...

(i mean it)

Even tonight, someone sent me a good-night-message to me...

and it is just awesome!!

(sorry I cannot reply it on the spot because i was kinda busy with Gaga's!!)

ahahaha...

p/s: Please, don't tear us part...~

-live, love, dream-

Sharing is caring...~

2010-06-22T17:39:00.004+08:00

I do believe in this word...

"Sharing is caring"

Why do people keep bothering us, even though they know that they wont get anything in return??

In short, they don't actually have to bother other people...

For some people, they are just messing up with their life..

or to a certain extent, they might hate us..

But, there is a philosophy that lies behind the situation..

"Sharing is caring"

Yes! It may heard kinda cliché..

But, if we look in their perspective,

they are actually very caring bout the person.

Do you think they will purposely share everything without any reason?

Of course they are not..

Get back to my point of view,

Theres nothing to worry about sharing with other people

regardless of their background, age and status..

as long as I am being honest to help and it is favorable to me..

In fact, that is something that I would love to do..

Because it strengthens my feeling on how I am so caring bout them..

Sometimes, i just cant resist on sharing almost everything..

and yes, there are also where sometimes people just dont appreciate what I gave..

But for me, as long as Ive done with my sharing

it is up to you whether or not you want to accept it..

Seriously, i have gone through so many stuations..

Even my name itself means "someone caring"

So, i was naturally taught to share what i have...

(even though my mom will always object it)

Because in the end, i was the one who suffer from the loss..

she will say "tu lah, bagi la lagi kat orang... ada je barang sikit kasi orang pinjam.. pastu hilang, rosak.. pastu beli baru and bla bla bla..."

"kau tu baik x bertempat.. Sikit2 nak bagi orang.. Cuba la lepaskan untuk diri tu dulu.."

and so on...

Sometimes, she is a bit wrong..

I am not giving everything to everyone

Yeah, sometimes I'm quite choosy and biased..

It must be something that is not beyond my ability

and someone that I am pleased with... :-)

These 2 conditions are the basis in my stand upon sharing stuff with people..

So, that is why i love to share with people..

Even though i barely know him/her

but, i have my feeling says that

I am pleased with him/her..

Secondly, if the thing to be shared is knowledge,

i would not hesitate to share..

Because i believe that knowledge should be delivered to anyone

And everyone deserves to gain knowledge~

still, there is some limitations..

I am not telling them everything..

Because, we have to keep a few for our own..

Unless it is for someone that we really like or love...

So, here I am..

My advise is,

Never say never to help person that you care..

The person that you like

The person that you are pleased with

Because we will never know what will happen in the future

So as the one who is cared by others..

Just take what people give considerably...

Never say that you can live without them..

Never say you are afraid about getting help from them..

Just, you have to know how to respond with the advices and things that are shared...

For those who are sharing and caring with other people,

Do it honestly..!!

Or else, you will end up with disappointment..

even because of some small little things...

So, happy sharing

because you are actually a caring person..!!!

Dont stop sharing

because that means

you are stopping from being caring.....!!~

Lelaki..~

2010-06-22T11:01:00.001+08:00

Khas ditujukan buat semua lelaki yang cekal dalam mengharungi hidup

(applicable untuk Hari Bapa dan juga buat Guru tercinta)

Siti Nurhaliza – Lelaki

Telah berdiri seorang lelaki
Hidup berbekal kecekalan diri
Walau menghadapi sejuta cabaran
Terus berpaut pada kebenaran

Berkurun sudah kau merintis jalan
Bertahun sudah hasratmu terhalang
Tetap bersemarak api keazamnya
Bara keramat doa dan harapan

( korus )

Kau melangkah bermula dari lembah
Kau mendaki setangga ke setangga
Semakin hampir menjejaki puncak
Semakin sering kau ditikam onak

Namun kerana kau lelaki
Derita dapat diselindungi
Tangisanmu rahsia dihati

( solo )
( ulang korus )

Kesepianlah teman nan sejati
Di dalamnya kau mengenal diri
Tenangnya wajah matangnya bicara
Kerana kau menyakini
Tuhanlah yang maha ESA

Kerana kau menyakini
Tuhanlah yang maha ESA

Speechless…~

2010-06-21T18:54:00.001+08:00

I don’t know..

I am just speechless

after what had happened in few days back..

Thinking bout things…

thinking bout feelings..

Thinking bout people…

and many other things…

So, here it is.. Speechless by Lady Gaga…

in conjunction with my post title..~

(actually, this song reminds me with so many things..)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I can't believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless
And I'll never love again,
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

I can't believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He's gonna get you and after he's through
There's gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it's complicated
But I'm a loser in love So baby

raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friend

I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless so speechless
I'll never love again,
Oh friend you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

How?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
Wow
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
Wow

And after all the drinks and bars that we've been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?
And after all the boys and girls that we've been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?
If I promise boy to you

That I'll never talk again

And I'll never love again
I'll never write a song
Won't even sing along
I'll never love again

So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You've left me speechless so speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose "death and company"
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

Kursus Kenegraaan Mahasiswa

2010-06-10T00:43:00.001+08:00

Sekembalinya aku ke BTN, aku sedar akan banyak perkara.

Antaranya, kita perlu berterima kasih pada generasi terdahulu atas segala usaha yang mereka lakukan. Jika tiadanya mereka, pasti tiada nikmat kesenangan yang kita alami sekarang ini... Generasi muda pada hari ini amat kurang berterima kasih pada mereka yang dahulunya berjuang bermati-matian untuk Negara. Perkara ini amat jelas ditafsirkan dalam salah satu LDK. Kami dituduh melakukan kesalahan, padahal kamilah perintis untuk menyiapkan tugasan yang diberikan, Cuma sengaja dituduh oleh Fasi sebagai melakukan kesalahan.

Sikap kita selepas berjaya juga amat berbeza. Selepas sahaja siap bendera itu, tiada siapa pun yang berterima kasih pada perintis yang terkorban. Jika ditanya generasi muda pada hari ini, berapa ramai yang mampu berbuat demikian??

Berada di tempat pejuang, aku sempat belajar yang kita kalau nak berjuang, jangan diharapkan balasan dan ucapan terima kasih. Kerana itu akan membuatkan kita berjuang tanpa keikhlasan. Dan aku dapat merasakan Tok Janggut dahulu tidak berjuang untuk mengharapkan balasan daripada orang lain, sebaliknya cukup apabila dapat membebaskan pengikutnya daripada masalah, kekejaman, penindasan dan sebagainya.. Memang benar.. Kalau lah mereka mengharapkan terima kasih, dan melihat pula sikap kita pada hari ini, pasti mereka akan sesali perjuangan mereka sebab kita memang tidak tahu berterima kasih.

Banyak sangat perkara yang ingin aku terangkan pada semua sebab aku rasa, adalah menjadi tanggungjawab aku untuk menyalurkan maklumat2 kepada rakyat Malaysia yang tidak mengatahui... Tapi, nanti-nanti lah...

eh.. kenapa,,,???

2010-05-21T16:42:00.004+08:00

hai...
(mengeluh, bukan menyapa...!)

penat lah macam ni..
aku rasa bagaikan x mampu..

bukan sebab apa pun..
tapi sebab....
1st: i have never been in this situation.
2nd: i am not ready to go through it..
3rd: i have no courage... i said it before...
i also have no experience...
maybe i am not capable enough to make u happy...

cos i dont know how to do it..!!!!
please dont blame me...

--------------------------------------------------------------------

Hari Guru.. Apakah nilainya guru kita…?

2010-05-15T21:55:00.001+08:00

Guru oh guru oh guru…

jasanya besar… nilainya tidak tertanding dengan wang dan harta..

biarpun banyak dikorbankan..

masa bersama keluarga, wang dan sebagainya…

Maka, bagi sesetengah pihak,

mereka memandang ini sebagai satu perkara yang meletakkan guru mereka di tempat tertinggi selepas ibu bapa..

Begitu juga sebaliknya..

ada yang merasakan itu semua hanya perkara kecil

yang kalau tidak dilakukan pun, mereka masih boleh berjaya..

sebab itulah kadang kala mudah benar bagi mereka

menghamburkan kata-kata kasar

yang menyentap hati dan perasaan insan bernama guru..

kononnya guru pencekik bukan pendidik..

wah… sedapnya mulut berkata..

siapa yang tercekik, mencekik dan dicekik pun tak tahulah..

Tapi ini mungkin dialami oleh sesetengah orang..

sebab cara sesetengah guru dan pelajar itu mungkin berbeza dan tidak sama…

Maka demikianlah mudahnya kata-kata dihambur..

Benar, tiada siapa yang sempurna…

semua percaya pada kata itu..

Tapi kita juga perlu percaya…

keberkatan ilmu itu terletak pada guru.. cikgu..

Maka, dikesempatan ini..

buat mereka yang pernah menodai jiwa mereka

dengan perasaan benci pada gurunya

hulurkan lah tangan

dan mohonlah keampunan

terutama buat mereka yang akan mengambil peperiksaan PMR dan SPM..

(tidak terkecuali pada semua yang lain ya..)

Kalau benarpun tidak berpuas hati,

bencilah dengan cara yang hormat dan menjaga maruah mereka…

Janganlah direndahkan martabat mereka

sehingga digelar dengan nama yang mengaibkan

froggy, dan sebagainya..

“lantaklah..”

menjawab memang mudah..

siapa pun boleh menjawab..

terutama mereka yang keras hati dan egoistik..

Memberi nasihat pun mudah..

siapapun boleh memberi nasihat..

maka, sama-samalah kita berubah..

sebab percayalah..

kalau daripada kecil lagi kita sudah tidak pandai menghormati guru,

sampai ke tua lah kita tidak akan reti menghormati orang…

sampai ke tualah kita akan tetap kurang ajar…

dan ketandusan nilai dan kesopanan sebagai seorang manusia..

-Semoga guru-guru kita diletakkan di makam yang tinggi juga-

-aku hanya memberi pendapat-

-nak ikut, ikut, x nak ikut sudah-

Selamat Hari Guru..~

2010-05-15T21:31:00.001+08:00

16 Mei 2010

tarikh yang akan dikenang oleh semua guru sepanjang tahun…

serta semua yang bereglar pelajar…

pasti takkan lupa…

Maka, di kesempatan ini,

Selamat menyambut Hari Guru buat semua warga pendidik di Malaysia…

Bagi diriku, kalian lah insan yang begitu banyak berjasa pada diriku..

tanpa kalian,

siapalah aku agaknya…

entahkan tahu menulis, membaca dan mengira..?

entahkan tahu memahami dunia ini bagaimana rupanya..?

Dengan itu,

semoga kalian dicurahkan keberkatan dan diberikan rahmat oleh Allah…

Semoga semua ilmu yang dicurahkan ini jua,

mendapat keberkatan untuk aku amalkan…

Terima kasih kerana sudi mendidikku

dengan penat dan lelah yang tidak terhitung…

biarpun segunung intan dan selautan emas

Tidak tentu lagi mampu kubalas…

Kan aku dah kata…~

2010-05-15T10:28:00.001+08:00

Erm..

sangkaan ku benar belaka..

x sampai seminggu,

terbukti dah semua yang aku cakap kat bawah ni…

Mana nak tau hormat orang tua…

dia rasa dia je betul..

entahlah…

Rights???

U know bout rights??

u dont take care people rights,

u don;t talk bout rights..

k???

Hak manusia dengan manusia…

pon ko x jaga,

usahlah bising2 cakap hak asasi la, hak ini la, hak itu la…~

dah…

-pray for me-

PELIK… –sambungan-

2010-05-11T17:50:00.001+08:00

Tak habis lagi kan aku meluahkan perasaan…

…sambungan post di bawah ini…

Senang cerita, kau memang x pernah nak jaga hati orang..

sebab apa, sebab ko tak pernah nak amek kesah…

bukanlah orang lain mengharapkan sangat pon kau amek kesah ke tak…

just ko kena pandai lah mengambil hati..

memang betul tak perlu jadi hipokrit…

tak perlu bermukakan talam yang dua mukanya…

tapi, setiap kebaikan yang orang lakukan

adalah wajib untuk kita bersyukur..

caranya bagaimana? Buat baik, balaslah baik…

Entahlah..

nampak macam desparado kan..??

aku dah malas dah..

letih, bosan dan macam2 lagilah…

Menyampah pon ada…

Terkilan usah cerita lah..

ke hati aku yang kotor??

selalu pikir yang bukan-bukan…??

erm… mungkin jugalah..

Apa-apa pun, aku yakin pada janji tuhan…

Everything happens for reason…

there are wisdom for every incidents…

just wait.. and kalu boleh, biarkan lah ia berlalu…

yang penting, aku punya periuk nasi terjaga…

ahaha…

-biarkan ia tergantung di sini-

Pelik…~

2010-05-10T18:43:00.001+08:00

You do not want people to take care bout you..??

Bullshit la weyh..

U never know how it is

to live with no one by your side..

when you are sad…

you are all alone…

no one to shed your tears..

no one to give u moral support..

no one this, no one that…

its NO ONE!!…

Yet you said that you dont care with people that care about you..??

Eh hallo people..!!!

Dont simply say things that you dont know..

you dont act like you know everything..

like you know how to deal with problems..

how to be a better human…

Like always…,

you will say..

“i dont mind… i dont care… like i care..”

do you know that it is an act of angkuh…? riak..? takbur..?

Hell no…!!! You dont…!!!

Now i wonder

why that u look like never growing up…

because of the mentality..

oh for God sake,

please dont think that you are good enough…

you are clever, smart enough..

you are great, superb and such!!!

U are acting like you are mature enough…

U do what adult people do..

So, u think you have grown up so much..??

Big NO la kid..

U are actually lying to your own heart and feeling…

that is not the way you should behave…

so, actually, u r still a kiddo…!!~

A kid that will never learn from your mistake(s)..

a kid that will never learn from your elders..

never learn the truth of living..

u r blindly driven by your emotion.

your egoism…

your so called “manly behaved”…

your evil!!! your dark side of human!!!

are all controlling you right now…!!

I would say that you have no bright side for now…!!!

You never see the person that care bout you like you are his second heart…!!
You never see the person that will do anything for the sake of taking a damn good care bout you!!!

you never see anything!!!
Any kindness that people are doing to you.!!!

you will never see it..~

You have no respect..

you have no respect to your family…

no respect to your siblings…

no respect to your teacher…

no respect to your friends…

Hopefully, u will still have your respect to Allah and His Messenger..

So, here it is..

you ever said this.. and i will remember this till the last day of my breath…

“biarlah orang nak kata apa… siapa kisah..?

orang nak kisahkan saya ke, apa ke, ini ke, tu ke,, lantak pi la…

yang penting jangan kacau hidup saya..

x yah nak amek tau hal saya…

hidup ke, mati ke x kesah…”

note: the name has been changed to saya for not revealing the subject.

ok then..,

let me see how far you can go with that so called principles..

You dont care..??

ok then… like people care u dont care…

Hello mister..!!

cakap senang la..

you will never know how life would be in the future…

by the time you feel like having just one leg,

having no support from family, friends and even God,

Only then you will know

how grateful it is

when there used to be a helpful hand during your old days…~

-My hope-

PLEASE, WAKE UP!!!

p/s: please stop smoking… you know that it is not good for your health, you are still young and please dont ruin your future with this stupid, damn stupid action…

We carry our father’s name, so do not spoil his dignity…

so as our mother’s..

I said this because i have been through a few mistakes before… (not smoking la.. i will never smoke..!)

(still care bout the person ryte…? hell no!!! this is just an advice…~)

Nak marah, marah lah…

kalau kau dulu tak kesah, la ni,

aku lagi tak kesah….~

Sudah-sudah lah tu…~

2010-05-08T14:57:00.001+08:00

Aku tak tahu apa masalah nya…

aku tak tahu apa yang dimahukannya…

aku tak tahu apa, bagaimana, siapa, kenapa…

Yaaaaah.. Kegagalan memang menjadi satu kemestian dalam hidup ini…

sama ada berjaya dahulu gagal kemudian.

mahupun gagal dahulu barulah berjaya..

(jangan kira kejayaan itu adalah pasti)

Persoalan aku..

kenapa mesti susah sangat nak berubah..?

nak tunggu bidadari syurga turun baru nak berubah??

(nampaknya macam tu lah..)

Bila orang cakap x nak dengar…

cakap orang lain dengar pula…

sebelum-sebelum ni dah berbuih dah orang cakap..

tapi, tetap juga x nak dengar…

egoistik.. stubborn.. keras hati dan kepala…

Bila dah terbentang kebenaran di depan mata..

baru nak tersedar..

“oh ya… kenapa dulu x ni… x tu.. x bla bla bla…”

kepoh plak tu..

padahal benda tu lama dah dulu orang lain ingatkan..

sebab tu lain kali jangan lihat siapa yang menasihat..

tapi lihat pada nasihat itu sendiri

Yang lebih menyedihkan hati..

diri kecil ini terasa seperti terus dilupakan jer..

entah lah,.

Tapi, kalau dah tersedar tu, bagus la jugak…

Ya… aku faham…

setiap orang ada masalahnya..

aku pun faham yang dia pun ada masalah..

masalah keluarga, masalah kerja… dan sebagainya…

but, it doesn't mean u can ignore what other people are saying to you!!!

U have to be grateful..

Dan jangan sesekali angkuh…

Suka aku mengambil kata-kata ini…

“Jangan kerana kita sudah pernah berjaya,

perkara ini membuatkan kita angkuh dan tidak mahu menerima kelemahan diri…

Kerana, bila mana seseorang itu merasakan dirinya sudah cukup sempurna,

sebenarnya saat itu kehancuran baru sahaja bermula…”

Jadi

buat sekalian pembaca..
Iktibar daripada post kali ini..

Rendahkan ego serendah yang mungkin dalam kita menuntut ilmu..

kita perlu menerima hakikat bahawa

orang yang hidup lebih lama daripada kita itu

memang akan lebih banyak ilmu dan pengalaman…

sebab itu datangnya kata

hormati yang tua..

hormatnya kita bukan semata-mata hormat pada jasadnya

tapi hormat juga pada ilmunya..

sebab itu jangan riak

sebab itu adalah pengalaman mereka

dan pengalaman itu mendewasakan..

(now i know why u dont look like growing up!!)

Hello people!!!

Please sedar la..

Sampai bila korang semua nak terus terusan macam ni???

Entah lah..
malas nak cakap…

Tak mengapalah…~

2010-05-01T12:15:00.001+08:00

Saat aku gembira pasukan debat BM SDAR akan ke PPM kebangsaan,

tiba-tiba datang pula khabar yang bagi aku kurang gembira…

Saat aku beria-ia untuk bersama mereka di Kelantan nanti,

Datang pula berita mengenai Kursus Kenegaraan Biro Tatanegara

Untuk makluman, PPM akan bermula 31 Mei hingga 4 Jun…

Kursus tersebut juga dijadualkan bermula 31 Mei hingga 4 Jun 2010

Ya… Aku tak kan sempat untuk pergi bersama mereka…

So, plan ini agak sedikit terganggu…

Untuk makluman juga, Kursus ini adalah WAJIB untuk semua pelajar JPA yang akan ke luar negara..

-biarkan ia tergantung di situ-

Ya Tuhan..~

2010-04-29T22:08:00.001+08:00

Moga dipermudahkan

dalam membuat pilihan…

Moga pilihanku ini

pilihan yang baik buat diriku..

dan dirinya…~

Cinta…~

2010-04-27T23:14:00.001+08:00

Di dalam diriku,
Hanya ada satu cinta,
Yang membuat ku bahagia,
Bersama mu……

-andai dia mengerti…-

Tidur…

2010-04-25T22:14:00.001+08:00

Selepas mimpi malam semalam,

mengenai orang yang aku rindu dan sayang,

aku asyik terfikirkan

andailah situasi itu wujud di ala nyata…

its so sweet…~

so, I Wish

i would have it the same tonight…

everynight…!!!

Dia…~

2010-04-25T10:56:00.001+08:00

Luahan hati ini ditulis

mengenai seseorang

yang kedudukannya selepas emak, ayah, keluarga, dan bakal isteri..

ahahahahah..

Aku ada seorang insan

yang aku rasakan aku sagat sayang akan dirinya..

sehinggakan sekiranya dia pergi dari hidupku

aku mungkin tidak boleh hidup tanpanya..

Dia membuatkan aku ceria

dia membuatkan aku kembali percaya pada diriku sendiri

dia membuatkan aku melihat dunia pada perspektif yang berbeza

dia juga mengajar aku erti semangat dan kekuatan…

Bagiku, dia terlalu istimewa..

tiada dua, tiga atau empat..

bagiku, dia hanya satu..

aku tidak pernah berjumpa dengan insan lain yang unik sepertinya..

Aku menyayanginya bukanlah sebagai seorang kekasih..

sebab aku tahu ia memang tak akan terjadi..

maka aku sayanginya sebagai seorang insan yang istimewa…

yang bukanlah untuk sampai ke jinjang pelamin…

Cuma, mungkin cara aku menyayanginya salah…

sebab dia tak sedar pun akan hakikatnya perasaan ku itu…

Aku memang suka buat dia marah..

sebab aku suka tengok dahinya berkerut..

suaranya yang tinggi ketika marah..

bagiku, ia sungguh comel, cantik dan unik…

Aku juga suka melihat dia tertawa..

sebab tawanya sangat menghiburkan hati…

Aku juga sangat suka melihat dia menangis..

sebab matanya kelihatan cantik ketika menangis…

Setiap saat aku berjauhan dengannya

aku pasti akan teringat tentangnya..

Setiap ketika dia tiada dalam pandanganku,

aku pasti akan merindukannya…

Kadang-kadang, meroyan pon ada jugak…

Tapi, nasib baiklah aku masih waras dan mampu mengawal diri…

Buat insan itu,

aku tahu kau mungkin tak menyedarinya..

sebab kau bukannya perasan semua itu,,,

tapi, kalaulah kau sedar akan semua itu,

janganlah salah anggap padaku…

Aku tiada niat lain selain hasratku itu..

Kalau boleh….

Aku nak sentiasa bersamanya,

aku nak peluk dia kuat-kuat agar jangan dia pergi dariku..

aku nak buat apa sahaja demi memuaskan keinginannya..

Aaaaaapppppaaa sahaja..

Asalkan dia bahagia dan gembira…

Tapi, walaupun dia punya perasaan yang berbeza terhadapku..

Walaupun dia tidak punya perasaan yang aku miliki terhadapnya…

Aku akan tetap melakukan apa sahaja…

asalkan aku suka,

dan dengan harapan dia pun suka..

Buat insan itu,

setiap kali aku di tikar sejadah,

sering kudoakan akan kau dilindungi Tuhan..

kuiringkan doa agar kau berjaya dengan cita-citamu..

dengan harapan kau akan terpelihara daripada sebarang musibah dan bahaya..

Setiap pagi, apabila aku bangun dari tidur,

aku berharap dia ada di depan mataku…

Jika tidak, aku akan mula mendengar lagu-lagu yang mengingatkan aku padanya…

Sehinggakan, kalau boleh,

aku berharap dia akan turut sama fly bersamaku ke Australia..

Andailah boleh kulakukan,

pasti akan kulakukan…

Hai..

Entahlah…

Aku bagaikan menanti bulan jatuh ke riba jer..

Tak mengapa…

Aku akan tetap menunggu

biarpun sehingga kucing bertanduk…

Buat insan tersebut,

Andainya kau mengerti….~

p/s: ditulis selepas aku terjaga dari tidur, yang aku termimpikan dia… :-)

SDAR di UIA 2010…~

2010-04-24T01:01:00.001+08:00

Prinsip dan kehidupan…~

2010-04-22T19:51:00.001+08:00

Sering kali aku terjumpa

dengan manusia yang punyai prinsip hidup..

Daripada prinsip ingin berdikari

prinsip panas baran

prinsip x kisah dengan orang lain

sehinggalah dengan prinsip yang melibatkan maruah..

Buat mereka yang hidup dengan prinsip

adakalanya kita perlu korbankan prinsip

kerana tak semua tempat prinsip tu aplicable..

dan boleh jadi juga

kita korbankan prinsip itu sebab orang perseorangan…

mak, ayah, saudara-mara, kawan-kawan dan sebagainya..

Prinsip aku tentang cinta..

“kalau nak bercinta biarlah yakin sampai ke jinjang pelamin…

kalau x, lupakan aje lah…

sebab bagi aku, orang yang selalu tukar-tukar couple ni

nilai cinta dier macam murah jer..

sebab senang sangat ditawan dan dilepas…

sebab itulah aku sedikit pesimis pada pasangan bercinta

terutama yang bermula sejak dibangku sekolah lagi

(sebab aku dulu macam tu…)”

Prinsip aku tentang kehidupan..

“Buatlah sesuatu yang kita gembira

sebab kalau x gembira, nikmat dan kemanisan hidup ini tiada

selagi tidak bertentangan dengan nilai agama lah…

sebab itu aku sering sahaja memilih untuk bahagia..”

Prinsip aku tentang rokok..

“dibesarkan dalam keluarga yang merokok

bukan mudah untuk aku lalui..

aku menghidap asthma suatu ketika dahulu..

memang asap rokoklah yang menjadi puncanya..

Kini, aku pesimis terhadap perokok

terutama yang merokok kat tempat awam, macam tempat tunggu bas,

tandas awam, kaki-kaki 5 dan sebagainya…

Sebab aku yang akan menghidunya nanti…”

Prinsip aku tentang kejayaan..

“biarlah kalah dengan rasa terhormat

daripada menang dengan cara yang hina…”

Prinsip aku tentang kepimpinan..

“Menjadi pemimpin, biarlah benar memimpin…

jangan dicabul amanah orang yang dipimpin…

susah sangat ke nak behave macam pemimpin…?”

Prinsip naik bas shuttle casa subang…

“kalau yang berdiri, patutnya yang berdirilah turun dulu..

sebab yang duduk dah puas berehat sepanjang perjalanan..

kenapa yang duduk pula nak keluar dahulu..?

kita kena kesian kan mereka..

prinsip keadilan tu kena ada…”

Kesemua ini adalah prinsip-prinsip yang aku miliki..

antaranya lah…

setelah aku semakin meningkat dewasa,

aku rasa pasti juga aku akan korbankan beberapa prinsip yang aku pegang..

Mungkin sudah tiba masanya aku membuka ruang hati untuk cinta…?

Mungkin juga sudah masanya aku toleransi dan menerima perokok seadanya…?

mungkin lah..

sebab, hidup ini tidak selamanya begitu..

kita perlu korbankan prinsip kita..

Narayan Shankar pun korbankan prinsip pada Gurukul…

(mohabbatein)

maka, buat mereka yang egoistik dan tegar dengan pendirian yang kadang-kadang mengarut

korbankanlah prinsip anda…

supaya kita tahu bagaimana orang lain rasa tentang hidup ini…~

Syafiq sayang kamu

dan aku tak pernah menipu.....~

Khas buat mereka part II~

2010-04-22T17:04:00.001+08:00

Buat kapitan, Saudara Adzlan Qushaimi…

Anda memang banyak improve tyme ni..

Aku sangat suka dengar kau punyer part..

Tapi, aku rasa

walaupun terkandas di Octo,

Top 3 best speaker tu macam mengubat la jugak kan..??

Tak mengapa…

Selepas ni,

Fokuskan pada SPM..

Sebelum tu,

Ada PPM tau…

Jangan berhenti mendidik mereka..

Mereka masih muda…

dan banyak yang perlu dipelajari…

Untuk PPM,

Jangan ulangi kesalahan di UIA hari itu..

Especially part2 preparation..

All those stuff la…

and, pasal insiden di tingkat 4 AIKOL tu,

aku mintak maaf sangat..

Siyesly aku x perasan..

X pe, taun ni buat la lagi piala tun razak..

huh…

Buat Thalhah Kamarol Zaman…

Anda pun dah banyak improve..

semakin hari semakin bagus..

bagus lah…

pesan aku,

banyak kan lagi pembacaan

Gelaran Top 10 tu x de la seberapa sangat..

kalau x disusuli dengan konsistensi…

Maka, jagalah takhta..

sebagaimana aku menjaganya…

huhu..~

p/s: jaga2 ya pmr… study jangan lupa…~

Buat Luqman Sufyan…

erm…

hurm…

mmmmm…

Begini..

Ingat jer..

dalam kita merasakan kerugian,

ramai lagi yang sebenarnya jauh lebih rugi…

yang penting, walaupun kita kalah,

tapi menangkan diri dengan pengalaman…

aku tau,

ko sure x setujunya dengan pendapat aku..

macam biasalah, kan…?

Just, janganlah kerana kalah sekali,

terasa kalah selama-lamanya…

Kita kan pernah menang dulu…

Debat Terbuka ASTAR…?

PPM Zon Selatan…?

Mungkin ini semua ada hikmahnya…

Apa-apa pun, Chill!!!

p/s: ni pesan semua senior.. Aku, Illyas, dan Adzlan…

x de kaitan dengan debat pon…

just, be careful..

fikirkan logical consequences..

as long as x de ape2

pepandai la..

awak dah besar..

akal dah panjang…~

Buat Mustaqim Marsidi…

Aku tau..

ko x de la nak down sebab kalah kan..?

huhu.. sebab benda lain kan..?

x pe.. Anda dah banyak membantu pasukan..

walaupun tak onstage,

tapi, next year nak onstage da kan..?

So, aku harap ko belajar dengan semua perlawanan..

Ambil mana yang baik..

buang mana yang buruk..

(contohnya, Angkat kertas, tiup meniup, dan sebagainya…)

Buat Cikgu Muhammad,

Terima kasih kerana telah membawa kami sejauh ini..

tanpa cikgu, x mungkin sampai ke sini agaknya kami..

Cuma, maaf andai ada terguris hati

dan tersentuh jiwa nurani..

Kami Sayang Cikgu!!!

Buat Semua,

Walaupun kalah di mata mereka,

Namun di hati ini,

Kau lah lagenda

(sheila majid)

Perwira

(Saloma)

p/s: kesatlah air matamu…~

Khas buat mereka….~

2010-04-22T16:15:00.001+08:00

Well, semua orang tahu..

Pasukan debat aku terkandas di pusingan Octo final..

Walaupun mendapat tempat ke 3 liga..

dan 2 orang pendebat terbaik keseluruhan,

semuanya itu bagaikan bonus sahaja buat mereka…

Apa yang penting,

keterkandasan itu bagi aku

secara jujurnya memang agak menyedihkan..

lebih-lebih lagi

setelah banyak benda yang dikorbankan..

Almaklumlah, ada yang sanggup korbankan pelajaran..

ada yang sanggup korbankan homework dan kerja-kerja kursus serta assignments..

Sanggup korbankan masa, tenaga dan wang ringgit…

Sanggup korbankan cuti..

dan sebagainya..

Cuma, aku faham..

siapa sahaja yang dapat menerima kekalahan

apabila yang diharapkan tidak kita dapatkan??

Bagi aku,

secara jujurnya

aku juga sedikit kecewa

hampa dan banyak lagi perkara negatif yang menerjah hati ini..

Aku melihat mereka bukannya tak berusaha

mereka sanggup buat apa sahaja

kalau debatlah tujuannya…

Kesian pun kesian lah jugak..

seperti seorang ayah yang melihat anak-anak mereka

tapi, nak buat macam mana..

Kalau nak dipost morterm, teknikal debat memang dah ok..

x da lah masalah sangat..

Cuma kadang-kadang

kita kena lihat balik diri kita..

Mungkin kini sudah tiba masanya kita bermuhasabah diri??

Merenung kesilapan diri…

manakah letaknya punca kekalahan…

Buat mereka berempat,

Tidak mengapa…

jadikan peristiwa ini sebagai batu loncatan untuk masa hadapan…

Walaupun tidak berjaya,

namun lihatlah pada pengalaman dan ilmu yang ditimba..

Aku tahu bagaimana rasanya

kerana aku pon pernah rasai kekalahan itu..

Cuma, ingat kembali pesan cikgu…

Usah dikejar nama dan harta

kelak tidak berjaya, pasti akan kecewa…

Namun, kejarlah ilmu dengan keikhlasan..

Kelak, walaupun tidak berjaya

kita tidak akan kecewa..

bahkan akan jauh lebih bahagia…

PSIKO!!!

2010-04-15T01:40:00.001+08:00

Weyh adik…

psiko je la ko nih…

dah la tu…

FOKUS!!!!!!!

Haish!!!

(hepi)

Pesan Mak…~

2010-04-14T18:57:00.001+08:00

Dahulu

mak pernah berpesan…

katanya, belajar elok-elok…

so, aku pon belajarlah elok-elok…

Katanya, jangan sesekali ambil hak orang….

macam lah mak x cukup bagi semua benda….

haaa… yang ni yang nak tanya sket ni…

macam mana kalau diorang yang ambil hak saya…??

Katanya, sedekah kan sahajalah…

buat amal jariah…

erm… tak pelah.. ikot kan sahaja…

Katanya, nanti dah berjaya, jangan lupa adik2..

(adik kandung, ya…!!)

OK!!! x lupa…

Katanya, jangan sesekali riak, takbur dan bongkak

nanti kena balasan Allah…

Ye lah… aku cuba untuk tawadhuk dan merendah diri….

Katanya, jangan suka buat musuh dengan orang…

Nanti, orang akan benci kita…

lagi katanya, selalu-selalulah tolong orang…

Entah-entah, esok lusa kita susah,

takut2 x de orang nak tolong plak…

So, terus lah aku membantu manusia dengan tabah dan tenang…

Tapikan, lama-lama

macam dah givup plak rasanya…

ya lah…

asyik buat baik dengan orang

akhirnya aku ni entah ke mana…

Tapi, x mengapa…

aku percaya pada Janji Tuhan…

Akan ada ganjarannya nanti di hari kemudian…

usahlah dirisaukan…

Tidak esok, lusa…

x lusa, tulat…

kalau x, tunggu lah sampai kiamat…

Pasti!!!

Aku bukannya nak mengungkit…

(sebab mesti ada yang akan rasa begitu)

aku just nak beri peringatan je buat semua…

yang walau apa pun yang berlaku…

kena sabar je la…

jangan nak mengeluh…

jangan nak tension…

hanya nanti sahaja ganjaran Tuhan…

Amin….~

Fahmi Yusry kata lagi…~

2010-04-12T23:15:00.001+08:00

As human we often make mistakes..we often make the wrong decisions and the wrong choices...but who said once you've fallen you could never raise back..it is up to us,whether we learn from them or we don't..the ones who blame fate are fools but the ones who keep looking forward and never ever give up are heroes...

Malasnya…~

2010-04-11T23:38:00.001+08:00

Malasnya… nak je rasanya makan orang…. warghhh!!!!

No idea la weyh...~

2010-04-09T18:22:00.002+08:00

Entah kenapa semenjak dua menjak ni

semuanya nampak serba x kena

ye lah

Daripada masalah di rumah

bawak masalah ke kolej

dan bawak ke masalah di sana

masalah di sini

dengan assignment melambak

dengan pendakian ke Genting Highland nyer...

Sangat lah memenatkan

Aku x tau la

kenapa ada jugga golongan

yang gembira dengan semua masalah yang menimpa

memanglah kene amek positif

tapi

kalau dah suka sangat buat masalah

sampai ada azam untuk repeat???

haaaa... kan ke pelik tuh...

X pe la

aku x de la nak salahkan memana pihak

sebab masing-masing ada pendirian dan prinsip memasing

so, biarkan je la...

Cuma, jangankan kerana kita pernah melakukan kesilapan

kita mahu terus menghukum dan menganiaya diri kita sendiri

Sebaliknya,

bangun semula

dan mulalah belajar daripada kesilapan

sebab kesilapan itu mendewasakan

dan juga

"Experience is the best teacher"

tak lupa juga pada guru2 semua ya..

x bermakna anda x best!!!

So, kepada semua

Jangan lupa dengar lagu

Noktah Cinta

Oleh Hafiz AF7

SEDAP!!!!

Thanx pada semua..

p/s: x sabar nak jumpa mereka...~

Fahmi Yusri kata....

2010-04-03T20:41:00.002+08:00

Ada masa kita perlu menangis

agar kita tahu dunia ini bukan hanya untuk ketawa,

Ada masa kita perlu ketawa agar kita tahu betapa bernilainya setitis airmata.

Ada masa kita perlu ada seorang teman agar kita tidak kesunyian...

dan ada masa kesunyian membuatkan kita tidak akan pernah lupa

betapa bernilainya seorang teman...

(Fahmi Yusry's Facebook, 3 April 2010)

Kerana dia... (Yassin)

2010-04-03T20:21:00.002+08:00

Aku ada crush

(David Archie sangat)

Crashed crush

Lantak pi la depa nak kata apa...

ade aku kisah...???

cak cak cak

(azwan ali sangat)

aku dah cakap pon

implied meaning la

dia x paham kot...

hahaha

aku hanya mampu tersenyum

(x puas pon)

ye la, maybe x leh tangkap lagi kot..

bak kata orang, x develop lagi...

Wah kau....

x pon

sebab ia cinta terlarang yang terhalang

(Bob sangat)

Ya lah

lelaki ini yang selalu memujamu, selalu, tanpa jemu

(anuar zain la plak)

dier x paham-paham jgak..

bak kata orang putih,

Dont stop believing

(Glee Season 1)

Jangan berhenti berharap

(SO7)

Sebab satu hari nanti

adalah tu

jangan takut

hati manusia itu

sekeras mana pun

akan lembut juga akhirnya

Bak kata satu cerita lama

Batu yang keras

kalau dicurahkan air setitik setitik

akan berlekuk jugak

(kalau contoh ni, asalnya tentang istiqomah)

Dalam cerita aku,

Buat la perlahan-lahan

Walaupun dia nampak cam keras kepala

tapi, teruskan usaha pujuk, dan imply more meaning

lama-lama dia akan sedar la.

yang sebenarnya ada orang yang sayangkan dier

dan bagaimana perlunya kasih sayang untuk kehidupan yang bahagia

(tak tau lah kalau dia tak nak bahagia)

Akhir sekali

dear you, i hope it is not too late to say I'M SORRY, and I MISS YOU~~

(ni Amir Safwan Zamri yang cakap, tapi bukan untuk aku, aku gunakan kata-kata dye jer...)

apa lah...

2010-04-03T20:09:00.002+08:00

hidup memang begini...

selalu sahaja benda yang kita inginkan, tak dapat...

dan seringkali juga, kita dapat perkara yang kita sendiri tidak pernah harapkan

Sedih rasanya,

hahaha

tapi, tidak semuanya begitu

ada juga perkara yang kita dapat

dan tak dapat apa yang kita memang tak nak...

Contoh...?

haaaa.. ari tu tyme shopping,

banyak sangat apa yang aku nak, sumer x der saiz

saiz pinggang aku 30

yang ado, 32 dan keatas...

baju pon sama...

saiz s

tapi cutting besar

so dah macam M atau L dah plak

So, memang x beli la...

apa la...

Then, ada tempat tu, baju x de saiz

yang ada, kat patung je saiz s

mintak ngan akak promoter tu

macam2 alasan plak dier bagi

Thats it kak,

I x heran sangat pon baju tu...

ahahaha

Tapi ada juga benda yang dapat dan memang nak sangat

Beli belah minyak wangi

Nak Armani Mania, Armani Code, Armani Attitude, Aqua de Gio

Tapi mahal la kan...?

so, beli la Diesel

tapi, dapat free miniature Armani Code

Sample Armani Mania, armani attitude and Aqua de Gio

Ahaha

kan best...???

tapi, apalah sangat pada barang2 shopping tu

tak effect langsung pon hidup ni...

(sikit la)

Yang paling penting

Kenapa benda yang aku harapkan lancar

mesti akan ada aral yang melintang??

(biarkan tergantung, hehe)